Today, I can finally say I've felt just about every emotion I can at this moment in my life. I'm just letting them hit me like bricks, and I'm okay with that. The more I pretend they aren't there, the more I feel like I'm being stabbed in the chest. And now I'm angry. Raging livid. So rage, hit me. I'm standing right in front of the train. Hit me.
God, please use these emotions I'm feeling to bring glory to Your Kingdom, even if right now I'm mad. Let them be ministers to Your throne. I now understand what You're doing to me so for now, let me fume. Cause the steam will wash away the impurities in me.