Friday, September 30, 2011

Trust, Faith, Love

What happens, happens. I trust in You.

Thursday, September 29, 2011

One Day, Please Let Me Sign

The more I fight grief, the farther I get away from myself.
I'm right here, grief. I am no longer ahead or behind you. I'm right here with you, holding your hand underneath this broken tree. I know when we stand back up we'll look across the horizon for that rainbow of promise. But not now. Until then, we'll grieve so that joy may come and increase.
I will grieve, but my grief will turn to joy. Now is my time of grief, but I will rejoice and no one will take away my joy. Not even you.
I'm dry. My faith is there, but I'm squashed flat and I have nothing left to give at this moment. I've been dried up. I want to love, but I can't the way I'd like to.
Sometimes I don't care, sometimes I swear to God. But He knows my tattered soul, He knows my broken heart.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Neither the Present or the Future

You don't know what you have until it's gone. You don't have any clue what not having faith is like until it's all been sucked out of you. It's hard to know just how precious your faith is in Jesus until you have none and it's the best feeling ever to get it all back. I can actually breathe.
Nothing can separate us from the love of God.
He's been here the whole time, holding onto my skeleton hand.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

First Breath After Coma

"Beloved, now are we the Sons of God, and it doth not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is." -1 John 3:2
I am so looking forward to meeting my Husband face to face and dining with Him. Mmmmm.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Awhile

Awhile ago, I started this blog up. I couldn't tell you why because I'm not really sure I know why.
So I've been attending Huntington for about a month now and last night was Holy Spirit awesome. My RAs and my roommate are killers sent from heaven. I had one of those moments I've only had around other people one other time in my life. I love when Jesus just washes things away in His big ocean.
I got a card in the mail from my mom today with a picture of my cat in it. She also wrote, "If God is for us, who can be against us?" in it. She has no clue how much that means to me right now.
Jesus is King, I am a warrior, and we're here to DESTROY.
I am living proof that Colossians 1:12 is real life.